Recurring dreams

I wonder if any of my friends keep having a particular dream, over and over again. I do, though they might not recur everynight. Sometimes the same dream comes again every few nights. I have had weird ones, sad ones, even erotic ones, but I will just skip on the last one. 

A personal favourite of Vic and Jen was my dream of being chased by a ghost/monster, can't remember which one was it. Well it started off as a nightmare actually. I was in an office, surrounded by tables, chairs, the works. I was alone, and suddenly the ghost/monster appeared. Scared out of my wits, I started running, in the office, dodging the tables and chairs. 

It, as you might have expected, started chasing me. So there we were, running around the office and this goes on for very long but in terms of dream timelines, it could be just seconds but it felt like a lifetime to me. Seeing as the ghost was not giving up and I was getting tired, I started thinking, "how can I get myself out of this?" So I stopped, turned around and said to the the ghost, "I'm tired of all these running. Why don't we stop and just get along?" It did, we stopped chasing each other, and I woke up. Jen called it my lame dream. I call it thinking out of the box.

Another one is a sad one. I dreamt that I was on my wedding dais. Mimi and I was looking happy and all, everyone was enjoying themselves. I was naturally excited as it was my wedding, but it was much more special than that. In that dream, my late grandfather was there together with us, sitting in his special chair, smiling. Looking at him, I felt so happy, yet sad at the same time as there and then I knew that it can't be true, that he was longer with us. I wake up crying, everytime I have that dream.

One week to go before my wedding, I really miss my grandfather.

Miserable day at home

Here I am, in my room resting. I feel miserable, but not as bad as I did after my 3rd cycle. I still feel nauseous, but this time, less of the vomity feeling. Not sure if it's different this time, or I might just need longer to detox from my recent chemo. 

Meeting the rest again for steamboat this Sunday. Hopefully I feel better then. My only way to feel better is to drink lots of water. But water doesn't really do it for me, so I need to be drinking 100plus for now. I don't know why I have to choose an expensive alternative to water. Hell...

We got our pre wedding photos from Kak Lynn. It turned out better than expected. Some, less so. The outdoor photos were brilliant, I didn't turned out as awkward as I thought I would be. I'm thinking of showing the photos to everyone in facebook, but was thinking it might be too much. Maybe I will let those going on Sunday to have a look..

The day just keeps getting nearer.

Why is it that whenever the gang of SW0202 decides to go out for a simple dinner, it takes forever to decide the venue?

So this Sunday I will be meeting up with the gang (Well some of them at least) at Serangoon Gardens for dinner. Nothing special, just that I miss meeting up with them. Pity Mimi won't be able to come along.

It will be just over a month to go before our big day. Preparations are going along fine, our family are getting excited over it. Even more excited than the two of us sometimes. Like what I told Mimi, we are getting married, but it is their wedding. I don't really care actually how the wedding turns out, really. As long as my friends are there to celebrate it with me, and me and Mimi gets married. That's all I can ask.

We had our wedding shoot earlier in the week. I was quite sceptical about this whole shoot thingy when we first signed up for it, but as the days got nearer to the shoot, I must say that I was pretty excited about it. Not sure why, I just did. So the shoot went along pretty fine. We had 3 attires for the shoot. One was a traditional Malay costume. Both of us all decked out in fine malay baju, me with the keris and all. Second one was a Indian costume. I think I was in a Punjabi? I'm not very sure, but I think I looked nice in it, minus the head gear. I'm not sure about mine, but I was definitely clueless what Mimi was wearing. What I know is that Mimi looked nice in it. What am I saying? She looked beautiful in all the costume we had on.

So for the first two costumes we had the photos taken in the studio. It was really awkward, for me. I saw a preview of the photos taken of Mimi, and she was beautiful in every shot. I went "Shit!" everytime I saw mine. I am not the most photogenic guy in the world, and everytime I smile, I can hear Jensen going, "Ful, you look perverted when you smile". I can't help but feel a little bit self conscious. There were some nice ones, so all was not lost.

What got me excited about that day was the outdoor shoot. I had a suit on, and Mimi wore this red dress ala the Cancan period. At least that's what Mimi told me. We originally wanted to go to the Hortpark but it was raining the whole day and it only stopped late in the afternoon. Thought of going to Botanic Gardens as it was nearer to the bridal shop, but decided to take shots along the old shophouses in Haji Lane, near Arab Street. I'm glad we decided to do it there. The shophouses gave it an old-school look and the photos turned out great, we were having fun posing and I was very enthusiastic about it more than I was in the studio. The photo previews were great and I can't wait for the photos to be ready.

Now the shoot is done. Waiting for the invitation cards to be ready. I was hoping for the cards to be done by this week, so that I will be able to give it out to the gang during the dinner. Looks like I have to get their addresses first, in case I wont't be able to meet them soon.

Just over one month to go. I am getting married. Wow...